Becoming a Mother

Becoming a Mother.

This series was created during first years of my daughter’s life. It was a way to survive and process traumatic birth and a load of being young mother in immigration.

Its dedicated to all women who felt other things then happiness and joy through motherhood. Who grieved their old life, unmet expectations, who felt confused, angry, lost...

I hope it to be a reminder that one is never alone in their experience and that even in pain there is a beauty.

I had 2 pregnancies,⠀
one ended in miscarriage.⠀
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my birth experience was traumatic. ⠀
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had C-section, felt guilty, felt like my body has failed me ⠀
or was it was me who failed the body?⠀
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felt angry, felt guilty, felt sad and lonely.⠀
constantly asking -

bad mother? good mother?⠀

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angry with the whole world endlessly thinking what I did wrong

let myself grieve ⠀
let myself cry felt sorry of all i’ve been through

gave the body care it deserved.
said thank you ⠀
you have not failed.